A question from a reader via Wisdom for Alms:
I have been meditating with Holosync (currently on Purification 1 CD #3.) and it looks like the more I do it the more I find myself in a depression. I have no motivation for anything (work, personal goals, etc). I have less awareness instead of having more. I just want to know if I should continue.
At what point was it worth it for you? I keep reading about people who meditate and it just frustrates me since I haven’t obtained any wisdom like these people I read about. The reason I keep on meditating is out of faith and because people like yourself give me a little hope.
God bless your work.
(My reply below the break)…
As I have found from personal experience, meditation has its uses, but is not the “cure all” of awakening. From your message, it sounds almost like you are “spiritually clogged.” I would encounter this once every couple of years (particularly with Holosync). This is nothing to be alarmed at, as it is temporary.
Here is what I would do when feeling clogged:
- I would stop meditating. Instead, I would practice mindfulness. Simply focus your attention on the external world (not the internal as with meditation). When you talk with someone, focus on them and the conversation. When you eat, focus on the flavors and textures of the food. Note what “takes you out” of the beauty of moment: thoughts and thinking. Thoughts create the grand illusion and lead to the depression.
- Practice seeing the beauty of everyday life. I took the photo above right after reading your email. I wanted to show that there is beauty everywhere. I got up, walked to the patio where there was this circular thermometer sitting on a dirty shelf and snapped a photo of it. With a tiny shift in perspective, you will learn to see beauty in everything. You will see the “Light” that I talk of all the time on my blog.
- Overwhelm the “clog.” What I would often do when clogged is put the Holosync CD on and listen to it for 2-3 hours. Play the first track (Dive) once, then put it on repeat for the Delta level (second track). I’d read an inspirational book while listening to the CD–often the Tao Te Ching, but pick one that resonates with you. Within a day or two, I would often feel “unclogged” and open. Note: I mostly listened to Holosync while in bed and would fall asleep to it. Meditating in the traditional way for an hour every day with it seemed too “trying.” I still had great results from it nonetheless.
For motivation (which if you read my blog has been a big issue for me lately), I found some wisdom in The Bhagavad Gita. Let your actions be selfless. Do your work not for yourself but to better the lives of others. In other words, let your skills and wisdom and actions be a gift for others. Forget about the results, don’t worry about what you should do or not, just do what seems like the right thing as the situation calls for, then move on. This can be surprisingly rewarding and freeing.
In summary, much of what I’ve suggested is about letting go. Let go of meditation (for now and maybe forever). Let go of trying to get results and focus instead on enjoying reality. Watch what causes the enjoyment to flee (thoughts & the personal self) and soon you will naturally let go of those too. 🙂
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