OK, the title of this post has nothing to do with ego stuff—just what has been happening in my life lately.

My parents have moved from a large, four bedroom home to a tiny, two bedroom condo, so pretty much all I’ve been doing the past two weeks is packing and moving and hauling boxes and boxes and boxes. The good news is that we are about done so that chapter will close and my folks can get some rest.

Mom is doing well, and her treatments only leave her feeling weak about two days out of the month. Since her CAT scans were clear during the last doctor’s visit, I’ve decided to hit the road on December 7th, my death day. I didn’t plan it that way, but that’s just when the campsite is paid up to.

I’ve been completely off-grid for the last two weeks. All my electric needs supplied by the sun, my water via holding tanks, and everything else by propane. The park is packed for the season, but I’ve got the overflow area—a large open space the size of a football field—practically all to myself.

Because of my family obligations, I’ve been neglecting my software consulting, and only doing the minimum with my students, but that will change soon.

I’m looking forward to a change of scenery and some much needed down time—a chance to recharge my spiritual batteries.

The Religious: “God is Love.” (“I want to know Him, but He is separate from me.”)

The Radiant: “Love is God.” (“I feel Her. She moves through me.”)

“God is Love.”

“Love is God.”

Do you see the difference?

No one needs to teach you about God. No dogma is required. No reading, or research, or middle-men are necessary.

You have always known Her.

Anyone who has ever loved… knows the true nature of God.

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PS: After writing this, I cracked open a fortune cookie: “When seeking the Light, ignore the reflections and go directly to the Source.”

There is only Love.

Love is the essence—the source—of all things.

An evil man is just a man who loves himself above all else.

To understand the true nature of Love is to understand the greatest mystery of the Universe: The conflict between Man and God—the conflict between Separation (love of self) and Oneness (Love as Self).

Love is the essence of all things.

There is only Love.

As I mentioned in the previous post, for the past three months I have been experimenting with the Law of Attraction/The Secret/Wish Fulfillment.

Why? For a couple of reasons:

1. I wanted to help my mother in her fight with cancer.
2. I wanted further evidence that She/God exists.

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I am writing this before I turn on my Internet, before I get inundated with the daily emails, before I lose the feel for what has happened. I’m going to do the absolute minimal of editing to get it out there. I don’t want it to lose the power behind it.

For the last three months, I have been experimenting with the Law of Attraction/the Secret/the Power of the Mind/Wish Fulfillment/….

I feel if it works for anyone, it should work for me—one who has so little to get in the way of the Universe (though I hate that term). I’ll go into more details in future posts, but this entry seems to be the conclusion to those experiments.

My mother has (had?) the same rare form of cancer as Steve Jobs had, a cancer so rare that there is no agreed upon course of treatment. After her surgery, after it had shifted and metastasized to her liver, she was prescribed a two-pill form of chemotherapy. One for brain cancer, one for colon cancer. She has neither, but there you go.

On Monday, my mother had a barium CAT scan done to see how the treatment was working.

On Tuesday, they did another CAT scan (non-barium this time) because “something was wrong” with the first CAT scan.

On Wednesday—yesterday—her doctor told my mother that the CAT scans revealed no sign of cancer, that the tumors—which were obvious on a CAT scan taken four months ago—were no longer visible. They took two scans because they were so surprised. They put her on three more months of the therapy (just because it isn’t visible doesn’t mean it isn’t still there), but all in all, it seems like a miracle and by the doctor’s surprise, it seems he’d agree.

This morning—12 hours after I heard the above news—I awoke to the sound of an owl. Sitting alone on a branch outside my camper, he hooted. I went outside and looked up at him, feeling that this was some sort of sign, some mysterious message, some arcane confirmation of the mysteries that lie behind all Form, some further confirmation that She exists, and is involved and cares.

A few minutes later, another owl flew over and sat on the branch next to him. A few minutes later, a third.

Never in my entire life have I seen even a single great horned owl.

Today I saw three.

I don’t know how else to explain this. I know I’ve said it on this blog a million times before, but at times like these, it really hits home. That these bizarre but wonderful events are just further proof that: the less there is of you, the more there is of Her.

This little Pioneer trailer I have, is the first place in my entire adult life that has felt like a home. Every other place I’ve owned has felt more like just a place to sleep. More below the break…

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