CHATTANOOGA, TN—Asheville makes sense. Its spiritual people would probably be receptive to my message of Mystical Oneness. There is beauty in its parks and nature and mountains. It has mild weather. It’s the closest thing to the Northwest that I’ve found in the East. It is relatively close to my family in Florida.
Asheville makes sense.
I drove through it, turned around and headed back out. It’s simply not where She wants me to be. (More below the break (huh?))
Before I left Florida, I commented to my mother about how I’m often asked to explain my behavior—my decisions to do irrational things—and I’m often at a loss. I can usually come up with an excuse why I do something, but its often just a bunch of words—sounds—to appease the questioner and make me appear sane.
The truth is: I “hear” Her and I act.
I hear Her whispers, “Get eggs. Stop here. Turn off the GPS. Walk down this alley. Turn around. Go west. Look here. Wait a few minutes. Go outside right now.”
She whispers. She points. She guides. She pulls. She nudges.
I try not to question Her… though sometimes I do. I hardly every know the why. Mostly I just do whatever She says.
The less there is of me, the more there is of Her and the more I question or second guess (or resist) Her will, the more trouble I get into.
When I fight the feeling I should do something, when I try to rationalize my way out of it—I immediately feel nauseous and quickly my life goes to hell.
When I listen to the whispers, when I surrender and follow Her suggestions—my path magically smooths out and events synchronistically fall into place.
How do you explain such irratonal behavior to a “normal” person? How do you answer when someone asks, “Asheville’s perfect for you. What’s wrong with it? What’s wrong with you?”
How do you explain that you don’t have the answers? That you just do things without any rational explanation?
How do you tell a normal person that you’re guided by what they would call God? That you see Her in everything?
How do you say these things without appearing crazy?
How do you make them understand?
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