MISSOULA, MT—Self motivation drives practically everyone. But what happens when you have no self? What motivates you when you’ve seen through the illusion of “you?”
If you’ve been following my blog, you know that I struggle with this issue—how difficult I find it to make personal, self-centered decisions—and this issue has become very apparent over these last couple of months as I find myself on the road with nothing to “do” and nowhere to do it.
More below the break (huh?).
Motives By Level
From the Mortal Level, we are primarily motivated by fear and pleasure.
From the Soul Level, we are motivated to transcend our divisive nature which separate us from Her.
From the Radiant Level, we are motivated to completely surrender our “self” to Her.
From the Oneness Level, we have no motivation simply because there is no other—only Her/Us as Oneness.
Shift and Adapt
Each jump from level to level requires two steps (each of which may last for years). The first step is to shift your identity, what you think of yourself as. The Mortal realizes they are really a Soul. The Soul realizes they are really Radiance. The Radiant realizes they are really Everything.
The second step is to adapt to this new realization. You live as a Soul. You live as Radiance. You live as Oneness. This step (no matter what the level) takes time and patience while Life acts as our mentor and training ground.
Adapting to Oneness
After the shift, comes the adapting. Ramana Maharshi, after his awakening, “lost interest in school-studies, friends, and relations.” Eckhart Tolle sat on a park bench for two years and “watched the world go by.” Adyashanti adapted to his new life for eight years before he started teaching.
I am still in the adaptation phase of the Oneness level. I seriously doubt there’s an end to it—but I’m confident it gets easier.
But that’s not my point.
What Motivates You When There Is No You?
Since, from Oneness, there is nothing wrong, nothing to fix, nothing to do in this always Perfect Now, I often write, speak and act from the Radiant level. From the Radiant level—where you surrender to the Will that moves through you—you act and react to what is happening around you at the present moment. You (She through you) act for others, not for yourself. From Oneness, there is not “other” to act for, so there really isn’t anything to “do.”
The Core of My Indecisiveness
The reason for my ongoing indecisiveness on whether to settle down (and where) or to get an RV and go nomad, is that there is no driving force to do anything because there is no “me” who needs anything. My Mortal mind (damn him) shouts, “Do it! Figure this out! You’re wasting time and money!” but I (centered as Oneness) just don’t care what happens to this body/life. This body/life is just not that important—it’s not me. This body feels like just any other thing, a thing that feels no different than anything/everything else.
From the Oneness level, since there is no “you” and there is no “Her” and there is no “other,” there is no motive. There is no need because there is no one needing and nothing lacking. From the Oneness level, there is simply no motivation.
Future and Present
I wish I had a nice neat “here is what you have to do to fix it” type of answer to the question of enlightened motivation, but I don’t.
In the Taos Incident, She said, “Do what makes you happy.” That is wonderful, completely-in-the-Present advice (and I use it often), but it doesn’t help for any future happiness type of decisions—ie: Will it make me happy to live in Portland? Will it make me happy to be a nomad again?—because those are based on manipulating the Present to achieve a particular future (the future does not exist in Oneness). In Oneness, there is simply no motivation to manipulate (change) anything.
Bear With Me…
From the Oneness, all “self” motivated options have the same “feel.” Get an RV feels the same as rent an apartment which feels the same as stay in this hotel until the money runs out. It all feels the same because, in Oneness, it all IS the same.
This isn’t a Radiance issue because Radiance always acts for others (She flows through “you” outward toward others).
It’s not a Mortal issue because there isn’t any fear behind it (it’s awkward and odd, but not frightening).
I guess it is a Soul issue, a why-I’m-here-in-this-particular-life issue. It’s a “Learn to live in Oneness or you’re going to come back again” issue.
It’s awkward and it’s odd and it’s just something I’m going to have to get used to.
So I’m learning (and blogging) as I go, and I hope you bear with me and understand that I don’t have all the answers and am just stumbling along like everyone else.
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