Think about Your True Nature all you want. Inquire into Your Very Being until the cows come home. Ask “Who am I?” for twenty years and seek Your Ineffable Essence. Thinking and questioning and inquiring are useful, but until we face the challenges of Life, we are just playing mental games. We are just swirling around inside our own heads.
I’m no different from you. She tests me all the time too. More below the break (huh?).
This area, Clovis/Portales/Oasis State Park, has been a testing ground for me. First the truck got stuck in the sand. Then—and I added this to my Miracle Log—the battery on my truck died. Not at the campground after sitting for two days. Not at the laundromat later that day. Not at the restaurant after doing my wash. But a mere twenty minutes later at the Walmart where I was buying supplies. I had just bought a bunch of frozen foods, foods that I wanted to get back to the rig as soon as possible. I turned the key and got nothing but the dreaded, “click.”
I smiled at Her blessing. Anywhere else that I’d been that day would have been a real pain in the ass. But I smiled, gave a little nod of thanks, got out of the truck, walked back into the store and bought a new battery. I replaced it right there in the lot.
The next day—and as an additional test—She started making all sorts of noise in the engine compartment of the truck. I popped the hood, rev’ed the engine and determined that the bearings on my alternator must be going bad.
I said to myself, “Screw it, it’s not my money, it’s Hers,” and I limped into a local mechanic. He listened to it and said, “It’s probably the bearings in your alternator going bad, but we won’t be sure until we pull the belt and fiddle with all the other pulleys.”
In surrendering, She guided me to an honest mechanic who, rather than charge me for a new alternator—what both he and I expected the problem to be and to which he could have very easily charged me and made a much larger profit—just replaced two little pulleys and sent me on my way.
Life is a test.
Your goal in times of trouble, is to be able to honestly say, “Screw it, it’s not my money, it is Hers. It’s not my life—She’s looking out through these eyes—it is Hers.”
Can you honestly say that?
Can you honestly surrender to Her?
She tests us all the time.
The Mystic recognizes that Life is a test. That Life is all about learning and growing and recognizing the wonderful harmony/paradox/enigma of Her living through You.
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