Journal 1/5/13

CITY OF ROCKS SP, NM—In order to keep these more manageable/readable, I may start posting single days if they keep getting this long.

Again, let me know if these become too boring.

Date: January 5, 2013 7:57 AM 

Thoughts of a former atheist.

From my bed, looking out the window at the juxtaposition of the rock formations and the patterns on my bedroom curtains, I’m amazed that atheist believe that simple gravity alone (well, with the three other fundamental forces) could go from rocks to curtains all on their own.

I’m more amazed that I used to believe this myself.

Why does mass attract itself anyway (gravity)? Why would it? Isn’t that weird?

Date: January 5, 2013 9:05 AM 

My fresh water tank seems to be frozen.

I turned on the water and the pump just ran and ran like the tank was empty. Plenty of water (was?) in the tank. Whenever I fill it, I’m always careful to drain a few gallons out if I expect cold weather, just in case the tank does freeze (ice expands). First time it’s happened though.

With the low sun and overcast days lately, my battery bank is down. When I nuked the beans for breakfast (I always have 1/2 can beans and two eggs), the inverter alarm sounded to signal a low battery. It was obviously designed for a typical car battery and not the deep cycle ones I have.

After the microwave stopped, the inverter silenced itself and I watched in surprise as my body let out a sign of relief. I heard in my head an imaginary criticism from one of my theoretical nondualist readers, “You can’t be enlightened, you still experience stress!” I smiled at my mind, pushed the thought away and scrambled my eggs.

Weather expected to improve, so hopefully these “cold weather lessons”of Her’s will diminish.

What do I care though? It’s not my life, it’s Hers.

#She #Nomad

Date: January 5, 2013 5:34 PM 

Positive feedback on Journal Experiment.

I seem to be getting positive feedback on publishing my daily journal to the public. I’m a little concerned that my terminology won’t be understandable to new readers (Radiance, Her, etc.), but if I keep making the explanatory links on the online version, it should be somewhat understandable (not that my blog ever was).

The water is running again (for you new readers, I roam the country in a travel trailer). I believe the line between the water pump and the fresh water tank may have had some ice form in it. I had gone underneath the rig and opened the drain valve and water poured out. But I’m just guessing that was the problem. It’s working and I didn’t see any leaks, so all’s well.

Plenty of sun today. Another day like that and my battery bank should be up to a full charge. Those solar panels/batteries are one of the best investment I’ve ever made.


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2 thoughts on “Journal 1/5/13

  1. Wayne, I know that this is way off point…and I apologize, but could you tell us a little more about your decision and feelings that you had when you decided to quit your job. I personally am going through the same delemma.

  2. Short answer: I quit because I didn’t want to have the excuse, “Fading Toward Enlightenment didn’t succeed because I was busy working.”

    But the more practical answer is this: “If you are still concerned about what happens to you, then keep your job.”

    Focusing on that fear can be a practice in itself.

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