May 4, 2016 10:12 AM
I almost got Serenity stuck yesterday—well, I did for about five minutes—but the traction control feature on the van allowed me to keep both wheels rotating which pulled me out.
Then again this morning, I found out I was stuck again. After getting unstuck yesterday, I just pulled into the first, dry-looking spot and made camp, but—as I found out this morning—the ground was still too soft and I quickly became mired in again. This time, it took me about an hour to get unstuck (dug trenches on both sides of all four wheels to reduce resistance, then filled the drive-wheel trenches with pinecones for traction).
You never know your limits until you reach them, and in this case, Serenity’s limits are still a bit deeper in the mud.
Which brings up a key point with the Ascetic Aspect: The Ascetic is all about finding your limits.
How much of “me” can I surrender?
How much self-control?
How much self-concern?
How much self-interest?
How much self-centeredness?
How much of my will? My desires? My fears? My hopes?
The Ascetic is doomed to failure—you cannot give up all of your Self.
You may wonder, why does the Ascetic want to surrender?
Because the less there is of the Ascetic, the more there is of the Divine… and all the Ascetic wants, is to merge fully with the Divine.
But this desire to find complete union with TaoGodHer is what dooms the Ascetic, because the only way you can find out how much of your Self you can give up, is to find out how much you can’t.
It is the destiny of the Ascetic—and they know this ahead of time—to fail.
But how else can you find your limits?
The smart have their theories, but the Ascetic is covered in scars.
A Powerful Synchronicity
Below are my voice recorder notes (for the book) made the day before, and earlier that morning. This is not unusual, I often record “insights” which pop into my head, but what is unusual is the content and timing of these insights:
- May 2, 5:46 PM: “Much like Ramana Maharshi’s ‘Who am I?’ practice, the Ascetic practice is an exercise in frustration. It’s very needed, it’s very important, because you have to feel this frustration, you have to feel the futility of it, to know how much you can surrender.”
- May 2, 5:46 PM: “And on that note, like I told Glenn Morrissette awhile ago, ‘How do you know your limits unless you reach them.‘”
- May 3, 6:49 AM: “Also on the Ascetic, self-interest is one of the big ones. Of course you’re not going to be able to surrender it, but at least you’ll be able to understand that the archetype of Desire is like the driving force, or motivation.”
I got stuck later that afternoon—and it pushed Serenity’s limits.
She works in mysterious ways. If I hadn’t gotten stuck, I wouldn’t have blogged about the Ascetic.
I guess someone out there needed to hear about this… about the wisdom of scars and limits and failure.
It's Time To Wake Up
Mystical Oneness and the Nine Aspects of Being is a step-by-step guide to enlightenment and beyond.
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It's Time Let Go
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