You have a tremendous talent for saying a great deal in such few words. This is amazing and incredibility deep material. Especially for us still using training wheels.
— Frank (from the testimonials page)
The old “About Me” page can be found here, but I feel this one is a bit more direct and less formal.
I was interviewed on Buddha at the Gas Pump on May 23, 2015.
Below, chronologically, are the key spiritual turning points in my life:
Satori On The Beach
Circa 1999. This was my first glimpse of what I would eventually call Emptiness (no boundaries). Having had the experience, it was no longer just theoretical—no longer just a belief. Documented in Fading Toward Enlightenment.
First LSD Vision
Circa 2000. My first (and only) powerful LSD vision which revealed the cycle of Life, Death, Oneness, and Rebirth. Also the first appearance of Her, though in the back of my mind I would often wonder if She was just a hallucination. This vision profoundly weakened my atheistic belief system. Documented in Fading Toward Enlightenment.
Telling Christine I Didn’t Want Family/Children…
and Christine summarily dumping me the next day. Circa 2004. This realization prompted me to largely give up dating—at least actively pursuing a lover. Freedom, in all its connotations, became more important to me than relationships. I no longer wanted to waste anyone’s time (including my own). Hinted at in Fading Toward Enlightenment.
Quitting Corporate America to Promote Fading Toward Enlightenment
Circa 2005. This was an “All-in” moment where I decided that I didn’t want any excuses for Fading Toward Enlightenment not to succeed. Though the implications weren’t real to me yet, I swore off working for corporate America for good.
Unexpected Past Life Remembered
Circa late 2006. Reliving a vivid past life memory—completely by accident—cemented a firm belief in me-as-a-Soul. Losing the fear of death made focusing on enlightenment far easier and made making the following ‘Enlightenment or Bust’ decision possible. Documented in The Implications of the Soul.
Decision to Find Enlightenment or Die Trying
Initiated June 2008. Having given up on marketing Fading Toward Enlightenment, I hit the road full time in an old RV with the secret intention of either finding enlightenment or to die trying. This was the start of my “Bank Balance as a Gas Gauge of Life Remaining” thought process. When the money ran out, I’d kill myself.
Around June 2009. With money almost gone and less than six months left of savings (and thus life), I gave up on finding enlightenment and focused instead on spiritually evolving as far as I could (in preparation for my next life) before I killed myself. The Radiant level was briefly experienced and I hurried to finish two books: One that I felt was important and one for posterity.
August 12 to September 17, 2009. The personal self was seen to be nothing more than a collection of thoughts and these thoughts (over the course of five weeks) were dis-identified with. Commonly called ‘enlightenment,’ I later came to calling this the Emptiness level. Started here with a frog, a month later the process finished with a dark night of the Soul.
Most of 2010. For most of the entire year after awakening, practically every time I tried to get my way or look out for my own self-interest (out of conditioning and a lack of guidance), Life would “punish” me. Conversely, when I’d surrender and allow, Life would line up and “reward” me. This unexpected and painful year-in-training helped me adapt to life after the Gateless Gate.
Realization That Synchronicity Implies A Divine Intelligence
November 6, 2010. With odds-defying synchronistic events happening daily, I could come up with only one viable explanation for them: There must be an all powerful, all knowing entity actively involved. This realization was when I officially became a Mystic and no longer your run-of-the-mill enlightened person (and certainly no longer an atheist).
The Emptiness/Fullness Paradox
August 11, 2012. When I stumbled across a definition of paradox defined as “between two truths,” I had the realization that Fullness (the Many) is an equally valid truth as Emptiness (the One). That in order for an awakened person to live in this world (“in this world but not of it”) one has to swim/live/exist between these two truths. This realization seemed to settle some unconscious inner conflict and had a profound effect on me. I felt I had finally found my place in the world (resolved the Separate-but-One conflict).
The Duplex Personality
November 21, 2012. Not knowing what to call the She/We/I experience, I was surprised to stumble across (in the book Cosmic Consciousness) a large list of historically enlightened figures who also had a relationship with some inner/outer God/Beloved. This alleviated any nagging doubts that She was just a figment of my imagination. With the dying off of these doubts, Her presence strengthened dramatically and She became an everyday and normal aspect of my life.
Fall 2014. Released NonAbusers.org which was met favorably by only 1% of my readers. I experienced extreme disappointment and disenchantment that my message of walking the talk—living your spirituality—had been falling on deaf ears all this time. Realizing how attached I was to the end results and my emotional reaction to this “failure,” I basically gave up and closed down this blog. I started a new online diary, A Mystic’s Journal with the intention of surrendering totally to the Divine while spending my remaining days writing a book on Mystical Oneness.
Resolution and Integration of the Mystic’s Dilemma
June 2015. After struggling with complete surrender for eight months, I finally resolved and integrated the Mystic’s Dilemma (the individual/Divine conflict). This struggle was documented in real-time on my site, A Mystic’s Journal and is now a book of the same name. With the issue resolved and integrated, and the felt “me-experience” as one of semi-Divinity, I re-awakened my original blog, WayneWirs.com, to continue documenting my life’s experiences.
October 2015. After a month-long identity reboot as the result of resolving the Mystic’s Dilemma, a new feeling of stable, all inclusive, “wholeness” came about—what I then called I, the Eternal. This me-thing experience—as my heart opened dramatically—eventually evolved into what I would finally come to call TaoGod(I). The primary feeling of TaoGod(I) is an overwhelming feeling of Love—unconditional, capital-L Love.
A Map of Mystical Oneness
October 2015. About this same time, while writing a book on Mystical Oneness, I designed a map of all the levels I have gone through in my spiritual development—levels that in essence describe a path to enlightenment (the Witness) and beyond.
The Nine Aspects of Being
January 2016. Over the course of writing my opus on everything I know about Mystical Oneness, patterns started to emerge and I realized that my path to enlightenment (and beyond) may not be the most effective method for everyone. I broke the “levels” down into Nine Aspects of Being and further patterns started to emerge. This new “map” allows the spiritual seeker to look up problem areas and work on the corresponding Aspect associated with it. This method allows a more on-demand “menu-based” approach to awakening while still supporting the integrated opening of both the Heart and Mind.
Mystical Oneness and the Nine Aspects of Being
December 2016. The publication of Mystical Oneness and the Nine Aspects of Being. This book represents practically everything I know about enlightenment and the mystical realms beyond. Publishing this manuscript and making it available to the spiritual seekers of the world has relieved me of my last “death bed” regret (not that I’m dying, but it’s a good practice). The concern that I might die by some unforeseen accident without getting my message “out there” was the primary motivation for completing this work. I’m now free and relieved of this burden which is a wonderful feeling.
It's Time To Wake Up
Mystical Oneness and the Nine Aspects of Being is a step-by-step guide to enlightenment and beyond.
It's Time To Be Happy
It's Time Let Go
Imagine I have only seven days left to live.