Denying The Divine

Patterns of the Tao

Patterns of the Tao

NEAR FLAGSTAFF, AZ

May 9, 2016 10:18 AM

The main series of insights from the other night revolved around a previously hidden pattern in the 9 Aspects and a re-defining of two of them—the Shadow and the Ascetic Aspects.

As the mental reassembly of the Aspects came together, I started to contemplate what I meant by Mystic. In doing so, I got the great idea that the Divine isn’t required for one to be called a Mystic.

My logic went like this (keep in mind, it was around 3 in the morning): … Read more…

I May Be Here Longer Than I Thought

The Bug I Wasn't Aware Of

The Bug I Wasn’t Aware Of

NEAR FLAGSTAFF, AZ

May 8, 2016 10:15 AM

“I totally get Radiance and Emptiness,” Michelle said, “but I’m not so sure where they fit in with the Aspects.”

Yesterday, as my mind and mouth began to answer, TaoGodHer whispered seductively into my ear, “Dumba-ji, you need to listen to what Michelle is saying.” (Dumba-ji is the spiritual name TaoGod gave me. It’s sanskrit for what roughly translates as “one who is a dumb ass.”) … Read more…

How Do You Know Your Limits Unless You Reach Them?

The Sad Results of Getting Stuck the First Time

The Sad Results of Getting Stuck the First Time

NEAR FLAGSTAFF, AZ

May 4, 2016 10:12 AM

I almost got Serenity stuck yesterday—well, I did for about five minutes—but the traction control feature on the van allowed me to keep both wheels rotating which pulled me out.

Then again this morning, I found out I was stuck again. After getting unstuck yesterday, I just pulled into the first, dry-looking spot and made camp, but—as I found out this morning—the ground was still too soft and I quickly became mired in again. This time, it took me about an hour to get unstuck (dug trenches on both sides of all four wheels to reduce resistance, then filled the drive-wheel trenches with pinecones for traction).

You never know your limits until you reach them, and in this case, Serenity’s limits are still a bit deeper in the mud.

Which brings up a key point with the Ascetic Aspect: The Ascetic is all about finding your limits.Read more…

A Tough Few Days — Part II: The LSD Study

An Illusion?

An Illusion?

NEAR FLAGSTAFF, AZ

April 15, 2016 10:15 AM

Yesterday I mentioned that a couple of things had thrown me for a loop: The “failure” of a theory I had, and an article I had read earlier that morning which made me question if spirituality was just a big mental illusion.

This morning, Rob resolved the first point (in the comments) by noting that my theory’s “failure” was due to a simple framing problem (physical needs confused with mental desires (a point worthy of a blog post all it’s own)), but the problem of “spirituality being all in your head” was still disturbing.  … Read more…

The Art of Spiritual Surrender

An Abstract in Pine

An Abstract in Pine

NEAR FLAGSTAFF, AZ

April 3, 2016 2:49 PM

I surrendered to Her whispers and fled the Great Nomadic Horde of the desert for the forests around Flagstaff: Robins and bluebirds and ravens and squirrels and pines and plenty of free camping and the oh so glorious solitude.

It’s too cold for the Horde—but it’s perfect for me. … Read more…

Wow. Really. Wow.

Mysterious Image From My Archive

Mysterious Image From My Archive

NEAR CAMP VERDE, AZ

March 27, 2016 9:40 AM

Yesterday’s post may have made it appear that I am sad or depressed but that conclusion couldn’t be further from the truth.

I am ecstatic.

I feel as if a ten-pound tumor has been surgically removed from my chest. As if a heavy, dark weight has been lifted from my heart. A foul and heavy weight that I didn’t even realize I had—that I had been carrying around my entire life.

That’s how good I feel.

Some wonderful lessons I’ve learned from the experience: … Read more…

Hopelessness

A New Day After A Dark Night

A New Day After A Dark Night

NEAR COTTONWOOD, AZ

March 26, 2016 7:05 AM

Last night, a smaller, gentler Dark Night of the Soul—my second in about seven years. Gentler, but more profound than the first.

I don’t want to get caught up in documenting and explaining it yet. I’ve recorded the experience in my phone. I’ll transcribe it later. I want to digest it first.

March 26, 2016 10:01 AM

TRANSCRIPT FROM VOICE RECORDER: … Read more…

My Conundrum (a Thought Stream)

A Boring, Unpopular, Everyday, MIRACLE

A Boring, Unpopular, Everyday, MIRACLE

NEAR CAMP VERDE, AZ

March 22, 2016 10:12 AM

After posting yesterday’s post, I went for a walk with the thought, “Reading that (the Divine sometimes speaking through me) people must think that I think I’m special.”

So as I walked, I contemplated this. “Do I think I’m special?” … Read more…

When She Speaks Through You

Where I'll Be Standing In A Few Seconds

Where I’ll Be Standing In A Few Seconds

NEAR CAMP VERDE, AZ

March 21, 2016 2:50 PM

A couple days ago, I was sitting around with a group of nomads (Randy and others) when a woman described a recurring dream she often had and asked me to interpret it.

I said, “Unfortunately, I’m no expert in dream interpretation…” and then TaoGodHer, much to my surprise, went ahead and interpreted the dream anyway.

None of the five people present seemed to notice the difference in my attitude or demeanor—none of them seemed to realize that She was doing the talking and not me—but apparently Her interpretation was spot on because the woman who asked about the dream thanked me twice… happily and profusely.

First draft from the book on this very subject… … Read more…

Cosmic Consciousness

The Corkboard in the Local Cafe

The Corkboard in the Local Cafe

NEAR COTTONWOOD, AZ

March 13, 2016 2:39 PM

I believe the strength of the duplex personality should be considered an indicator of one’s awakening. In 1901, Richard Bucke listed numerous individuals with it, but even a few of today’s teachers seem to exhibit it in various strengths.

Years ago, in Fort Lauderdale, I went to see this odd little man—an unknown author called Eckhart Tolle give a talk. He had just come out with his first book, The Power of Now and there were only about 35 of us who came to hear what he had to say. Probably about three quarters of us (myself included) hadn’t even read his book yet. The first thing he said was, “I’m sitting here and I don’t know what I’m going to talk about,” and then for the next two hours, he proceeded to speak so profoundly and eloquently that practically all of us were left rapt and speechless.

He may not have known what he was going to talk about, but She sure did.

From my book, under the chapter, Living as a Mystic… … Read more…