Love Is The Life Force

When Love Departs

When Love Departs

YUMA, AZ

December 21, 2016 11:26 AM

One of the lessons of the Self Aspect is that Love and Desire are required for life to thrive.

Don’t fall for the everything is Nothing trap. “Everything is Nothing” is just another belief, just another theory. Just more mind crap. Remember the lesson of the Lily Pads!Read more…

A Step-by-Step Guide to the “Making It Personal” Oneness Meditation

Save this photo to your phone.

NEAR FLAGSTAFF, AZ

April 24, 2016 10:41 AM

For easy reference when doing this meditation, bookmark this page, print it, or save the photo above to your phone.

Please see this series of posts for the background material. … Read more…

30 Years Wasted. How To Do Ramana Maharshi’s “Who Am I?” All Wrong.

When the Me-Story's Gone.

When the Me-Story’s Gone.

NEAR FLAGSTAFF, AZ

April 22, 2016 9:34 AM

Yesterday, for the book, I wrote:

I spent about 30 years of my life doing Ramana Maharshi’s “Who am I?” technique all wrong. The query is so simple that it’s hard to believe anyone could do it wrong, but spiritual techniques and theories are so notoriously vague and incomplete that assumptions—usually incorrect assumptions—are by necessity made by students.

Sad but true.

Here is what I was doing wrong by asking myself, “Who am I?” for thirty years… … Read more…

The ‘Me’ Vacuum

This is your brain on 'Me'

This is your brain on ‘Me’

NEAR FLAGSTAFF, AZ

April 17, 2016 10:41 AM

The other day, I asked Michelle how she accesses Emptiness. She responded (in part):

Usually I’ll be ruminating on something and then snap into a “wait, this is ridiculous to spend all of this mental energy on illusion” sort of realization and it will just happen like that.

When I get caught up in my me-me-me thoughts, I focus on the feel of the contraction/thoughts and visualize pulling them out of my head and dropping them to the ground beside me.

What happens next is what most people call “enlightenment.” The outside world fills the space that was left behind when the me-me-me thoughts were removed and the world and I become one. The Gateless Gate—the felt barrier between the inside world and the outside world—vanishes.

Notice what happened with both Michelle and I: We were focused on interior thoughts (the introspective section of the brain was activated), then we removed the contents of the interior. Because nature abhors a vacuum, the interior space automatically gets “filled” with the outside world. … Read more…

A Most Difficult Practice

Selfies aren't easy for Introverts

Selfies aren’t easy for Introverts

NEAR EHRENBERG, AZ

February 3, 2016 6:43 PM

Why aren’t you always uninhibited?

Be uninhibited. Always.

That’s the practice.

And it’s a most difficult one.

Coming Out of the Closet

Stairs and Windows

Stairs and Windows

THE DESERT

January 21, 2016 5:26 PM

At around the 29:10 mark of this BATGAP video, Francis Bennett suggests a “Coming out of the Closet” day for spiritual teachers. He was talking about spiritual teachers becoming more transparent—to show their human side.

I’ve been saying this for years, and I was glad to have stumbled across the video (unfortunately, none of the rest of the panel of teachers seemed too thrilled about “coming out of the closet.”) … Read more…

The Garden of Eden

What Was Always There

What Was Always There

SOMEWHERE IN THE SAN ISABEL NF, WEST OF PONCHA SPRINGS, CO

July 30, 2015 2:14 PM

Naked, I stood on a large boulder feeling joyously and intensely alive as the sun warmed and dried my shivering body. As all self-boundaries fell away, a deep and profound sense of connection to my surroundings engulfed me—an almost sensual merging with the forest and the boulders and the crystal clear creek and the sky and the sun. I felt one with the All as I stood on a boulder in a creek as the water rolled gently down my skin. … Read more…

The Times Are A-Changin’

The Sun Sets On A New Camp

The Sun Sets On A New Camp

CONGRESS, AZ—For the last few days I’ve been contemplating taking this, or another blog, in a new direction. Then this morning, reader Jud sent me this link from Scott Kiloby’s site about “premature awakening.”

At first I thought Jud was being critical of me (and maybe he/she was as it seems a lot of people have been beating up on me lately), but then upon reading the post, I agreed with practically all of it.

Adyashanti told me earlier in the year that I was at what he calls the Transcendent Self stage—what many people throughout history have called enlightenment. This stage still has a “self” (the Witness), but the personal self (the ego) has been transcended (seen through, experienced as “other”). He said “this is where all the good stuff happens,” meaning the magic and the direct experience of God.

Adyashanti says there is still another level beyond this which he calls No Self, and which I’ve had a few experiences with.

Still, some interesting points I took from Kiloby’s article (my wording):

  1. That not all chakras clear at the same time
  2. That when the head chakra clears, people often go right into “teacher mode”

I definitely went into #2 right away (as you can see with all my Horton stuff). Kiloby says he did too and said this is practically expected.

But #1 surprised me and—synchronistically meshing with my desire to shake things up a bit on the blog—got me thinking about my own “chakra” issues (I don’t come from a chakra background):

  • The self-concern chakra. I’m still too habituated with self-preservation and getting my way.
  • The taking criticism too seriously chakra. Damned if I know why, but I still haven’t “cleared” this chakra.

Both of these (and I’m sure there are others), instantly and unconsciously “contract” me out of the Vastness and that really bothers me. Sadly, I’ve yet to find anyone like me who blogs about their personal life (as opposed to just showing their stage persona), so I’m pretty much on my own (nothing new there) but I have a few ideas.

Anyway, no firm decisions yet on the blog or my direction, but it seems the times are a-changin’.

The Rabbit Hole

The Eye is not the Subject

The Eye is not the Subject

FLAGSTAFF, AZ—You’ve often heard me dissing thoughts. One of the biggest thoughts we have is about the personal self—your past, your story, your roles.

Here’s a simple Emptiness practice that can lead you down the rabbit hole, reveal your personal self and land you directly in front of the Gateless Gate.

If you agree with this:

A dead brain has no memories.

Then think deeply about this:

If something depends on memory to exist, it cannot be real.

Time? Illusion.

Past? Illusion.

Your past? Illusion.

Your personal self/story? Illusion.

Now read those two clauses again, and I’ll see you on the other side.

Nihilism

The Void

The Void

FLAGSTAFF, AZ—Every time I see the word, nihilism, I think of the movie, The Big Lebowski, and every time I think of The Big Lebowski I think of what a perfect movie it is for any serious student of any nondual teaching because The Big Lebowski is anything but serious.

The Big Lebowski is about the Dude, who just wants to abide (and bowl). The Dude is a simple man who keeps getting draw into the entirely mentally-based lives of everyone else around him: Walter, the war veteran, where everything is about Vietnam; Donny, the clueless guy, who is so trapped in his mind that he has to constantly ask what’s going on around him; the feminist who wants a baby; the gold digger who wants a sugar daddy; the broke sugar daddy trying to maintain a facade of wealth; and of course the nihilists.

“We believe in nothing, Lebowski!”

Every serious spiritual student must face the Void… the Emptiness, the Meaninglessness, the Hell of Eternal Darkness… the Nothing.

Every serious spiritual seeker—because as I’ve said before, it’s all about identity—must face their existential angst.

“We believe in nothing, Lebowski!”

The Dude, chatting up the gold digger, comments on a guy, passed out and floating on an inner tube in the pool (ironically in bright sunlight… a pool of Light) and the gold digger says, “Uli doesn’t care about anything. He’s a Nihilist.,” to which the Dude replies:

“Ah, that must be exhausting.”

In the movie, the nihilists are always excessively dramatic. They are so forcefully adamant. The nihilists, who believe in nothing, take their nothing very seriously.

How can Nothing be so exhausting?

The spiritual seeker when confronting Emptiness—because their very identity is collapsing and at risk—take Nothing very seriously.

How can the Void be so frightening? How can Emptiness be so full of foreboding. How can nothing be full of such… something, such dark energy?

Because when the spiritual seeker honestly looks deeply into the Void, they become a Nihilist, and just like every other character in the movie—everyone except the Dude of course—nihilists believe in a mental concept. Nihilist believe in Nothing, and Nothing (Emptiness, the Void) is a mental concept and mental concepts are exhausting.

It is called the Gateless Gate for a reason. You are stumbling around in the dark, but you’ll never find a wall that you can run your hand along to an opening. Nope, you’ll find nothing. Nor will you come across some giant iron door, that when opened reveals a glorious Light. Nope, not that either.

It’s called the Gateless Gate because there is no gate, there is no wall. It’s called the Gateless Gate because the Endless Darkness that you are stumbling around in, the Nothing that appears so real, is just another mental concept.

“We believe in nothing, Lebowski!”

“Ah, that must be exhausting.”

The Light doesn’t shine out of the Darkness—there is no Gate/Darkness. It is the exact opposite: the Darkness comes out of the Light of Awareness.

The “Nothing” is an object in the Light of Awareness. The “Nothing” is a concept of the mind.

The Tao is the source of the ten thousand things…

The Tao is the source of the Nothing/Emptiness/Void.

The Tao is the Light.