PALM BAY, FL—Yesterday, while writing code in a bookstore, a frail old man came up and asked about my laptop—a tiny MacBook Air. I could instantly see he was conflicted—he had a lot of questions to ask about the computer but he didn’t want to interrupt what I was working on.

What struck me though (and I am constantly struck by the simplest things these days) is that the Wayne of Old would have been annoyed (as any programmer will tell you) at having to “come out of the code” because of the interruption. But the funny thing is, I wasn’t bothered in the least, in fact, I found the “shift” from code to personal interaction to be almost mystical.

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OKLAHOMA CITY, OK—Drifting westward, I’ve stopped in Oklahoma City to get some work done.

More and more I’m questioning how it is that others who claim enlightenment aren’t more mystical. When their personal self fell away, what do they claim motivates them from day to day? When they look for their source, how can they NOT find Divinity?

CHATTANOOGA, TN—Asheville makes sense. Its spiritual people would probably be receptive to my message of Mystical Oneness. There is beauty in its parks and nature and mountains. It has mild weather. It’s the closest thing to the Northwest that I’ve found in the East. It is relatively close to my family in Florida.

Asheville makes sense.

I drove through it, turned around and headed back out. It’s simply not where She wants me to be. (More below the break (huh?))

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PALM BAY, FL—A few days ago, as I was driving my mother to a doctor’s appointment, I commented on the profound stillness residing within an indigent-looking man, a man who was crossing the street in front of us. My mother asked what it is that I see within people, if I see auras or something.

This morning, I received an email from a reader, kim, asking for pointers on visualizing the Light during my guided meditations.

I interpreted these two incidents as Her way of telling me it’s time to explain how I “see the Light.”

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PALM BAY, FL—I don’t want this blog to become just an “informational/teaching” blog like most nondualist blogs, so here’s what’s been going on with my life…

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PALM BAY, FL—It is often said that sages (the enlightened) act spontaneously as events arise. Here’s the why of it—and how it feels to live this way… More below the break (huh?).

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PALM BAY, FL–Recently one of the things that has really surprised me is how much time, energy and stress I used to put into protecting and “improving” myself and my life. A “self” and “life” that were ultimately just figments of my imagination.

You see, before I woke up, almost all my time was spent on making my life better: Smarter, wealthier, wiser, more comfortable, happier, etc. It was spent on winning.

Almost all my energy was spent on trying not to lose.

When the personal self falls way and the ego barrier crumbles, the inside (the former you) merges with the outside (Her/the Universe) and you profoundly realize that You-As-Nothing and She-As-Everything are the exact same thing. You find that you have nothing to lose because 1) as Nothing, you never had anything, and 2) as Everything you have nothing that is lacking.

But what is not readily apparent is that the energy formerly spent on defenses and betterment, gradually transforms into a deep-felt sense of joy and happiness and–most powerfully of all–appreciation.

Experiment! Play!

So even if you haven’t “woken up” yet, why not experiment with it? Why not play with this awhile–for an hour, a day, a week–and see if you really have anything to lose?

Stop defending. Stop trying to improve. Forget about the best deal, the best you can be. Just kick-back and say, “You know, this is just fine with me.”

A life lived in this manner feels open and alive and amazing. It feels like harmony. Play with it, try it out, see for yourself if it isn’t worth the loss–the loss of the ego barrier running you ragged.