Love and Light and Li

Love and Light and Li

Love and Light and Li

ALBUQUERQUE, NM

April 18, 2017 8:51 AM

In a coffee shop, I ponder. On my laptop, the outline of Love and Enlightenment. The Introduction needs to capture the reader’s attention. It needs to show why the reader should open this book and continue. It needs to show the benefits.

“Love is all around you,” I want to tell them. Yet from where I sit in this empty shop, I can’t see anyone. Only man-made objects. … Read more…

The Dust Devil

Last Night's Camp

Last Night’s Camp

OUTSIDE GILA BEND, AZ

February 5, 2017 3:25 PM

As I made my way back to Phoenix, as I sought to find a place Morrissette had told me about, as I thought about visiting my family next week, just then a tall dust devil appeared in front of me and I recognized how far from anything I was and I thought, “I’m the only person who sees you,” and She whispered:

Everything is temporary. Everything but us.

And as the whirling column faded away into nothing, I whispered back, “I see you… I see you everywhere.”

Sometimes She sings it to me. Sometimes I sing it to Her: I See You.

I guess in the end… it’s all the same.

Love Is The Life Force

When Love Departs

When Love Departs

YUMA, AZ

December 21, 2016 11:26 AM

One of the lessons of the Self Aspect is that Love and Desire are required for life to thrive.

Don’t fall for the everything is Nothing trap. “Everything is Nothing” is just another belief, just another theory. Just more mind crap. Remember the lesson of the Lily Pads!Read more…

Love From… ?

A Scene From The Road

A Scene From The Road

BISHOP, CA

October 20, 2016 3:06 PM

I awoke last night filled with love. This is happening more and more lately. It’s not like I’m trying or practicing or doing anything different.

It’s just happening. … Read more…

You Are On The Right Path

The Mist Moves Toward The Light

The Mist Moves Toward The Light

ON MT. HOOD, OR

September 4, 2016 8:36 AM

I stood and stared at the scene above. I stood in awe and wonder and gratitude for at least ten minutes.

Continue doing what you’re doing, I heard Her whisper. You are on the right path, Wayne.

Do everything for love.

Write the book for your audience, not for your self interests.

Live for others.

I had just finished the book, The Art of Peace yesterday. I was amazed at how similarly we experienced Her. As Light. As Love. As the Life Force. As a living Being, right here, right now. Everywhere.

As the fog moved through the shadows toward the Light, like a million souls merging with the Divine, I gazed in wonder and gratitude.

You are on the right path, Wayne. Continue doing what you’re doing.

I know this makes me officially crazy.

It feels so good though. I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Wow. Really. Wow.

Mysterious Image From My Archive

Mysterious Image From My Archive

NEAR CAMP VERDE, AZ

March 27, 2016 9:40 AM

Yesterday’s post may have made it appear that I am sad or depressed but that conclusion couldn’t be further from the truth.

I am ecstatic.

I feel as if a ten-pound tumor has been surgically removed from my chest. As if a heavy, dark weight has been lifted from my heart. A foul and heavy weight that I didn’t even realize I had—that I had been carrying around my entire life.

That’s how good I feel.

Some wonderful lessons I’ve learned from the experience: … Read more…

Hopelessness

A New Day After A Dark Night

A New Day After A Dark Night

NEAR COTTONWOOD, AZ

March 26, 2016 7:05 AM

Last night, a smaller, gentler Dark Night of the Soul—my second in about seven years. Gentler, but more profound than the first.

I don’t want to get caught up in documenting and explaining it yet. I’ve recorded the experience in my phone. I’ll transcribe it later. I want to digest it first.

March 26, 2016 10:01 AM

TRANSCRIPT FROM VOICE RECORDER: … Read more…

I Love You

My Totems

My Totems

NEAR EHRENBERG, AZ

January 30, 2016 7:13 PM

“I love you.”

Everyday I say this—if only in my head.

Sometimes I say it out loud.

Everyday I feel it—deeply feel it.

“I love you.”

Michelle sent me this video today, explaining how she sees Her everywhere in it.

When you see the BEAUTY in all those faces—when you see HER shining out from behind all these eyes—how can you not feel, “I love you.”

How can you not say it?

“I love you.”

She’s right here. Because I see Her everywhere, I’m such a different man that I was before.

And I’m so grateful.

“I love you.” It’s so easy for me to say these days… because it’s so easy for me to feel.

Nihilism

The Void

The Void

FLAGSTAFF, AZ—Every time I see the word, nihilism, I think of the movie, The Big Lebowski, and every time I think of The Big Lebowski I think of what a perfect movie it is for any serious student of any nondual teaching because The Big Lebowski is anything but serious.

The Big Lebowski is about the Dude, who just wants to abide (and bowl). The Dude is a simple man who keeps getting draw into the entirely mentally-based lives of everyone else around him: Walter, the war veteran, where everything is about Vietnam; Donny, the clueless guy, who is so trapped in his mind that he has to constantly ask what’s going on around him; the feminist who wants a baby; the gold digger who wants a sugar daddy; the broke sugar daddy trying to maintain a facade of wealth; and of course the nihilists.

“We believe in nothing, Lebowski!”

Every serious spiritual student must face the Void… the Emptiness, the Meaninglessness, the Hell of Eternal Darkness… the Nothing.

Every serious spiritual seeker—because as I’ve said before, it’s all about identity—must face their existential angst.

“We believe in nothing, Lebowski!”

The Dude, chatting up the gold digger, comments on a guy, passed out and floating on an inner tube in the pool (ironically in bright sunlight… a pool of Light) and the gold digger says, “Uli doesn’t care about anything. He’s a Nihilist.,” to which the Dude replies:

“Ah, that must be exhausting.”

In the movie, the nihilists are always excessively dramatic. They are so forcefully adamant. The nihilists, who believe in nothing, take their nothing very seriously.

How can Nothing be so exhausting?

The spiritual seeker when confronting Emptiness—because their very identity is collapsing and at risk—take Nothing very seriously.

How can the Void be so frightening? How can Emptiness be so full of foreboding. How can nothing be full of such… something, such dark energy?

Because when the spiritual seeker honestly looks deeply into the Void, they become a Nihilist, and just like every other character in the movie—everyone except the Dude of course—nihilists believe in a mental concept. Nihilist believe in Nothing, and Nothing (Emptiness, the Void) is a mental concept and mental concepts are exhausting.

It is called the Gateless Gate for a reason. You are stumbling around in the dark, but you’ll never find a wall that you can run your hand along to an opening. Nope, you’ll find nothing. Nor will you come across some giant iron door, that when opened reveals a glorious Light. Nope, not that either.

It’s called the Gateless Gate because there is no gate, there is no wall. It’s called the Gateless Gate because the Endless Darkness that you are stumbling around in, the Nothing that appears so real, is just another mental concept.

“We believe in nothing, Lebowski!”

“Ah, that must be exhausting.”

The Light doesn’t shine out of the Darkness—there is no Gate/Darkness. It is the exact opposite: the Darkness comes out of the Light of Awareness.

The “Nothing” is an object in the Light of Awareness. The “Nothing” is a concept of the mind.

The Tao is the source of the ten thousand things…

The Tao is the source of the Nothing/Emptiness/Void.

The Tao is the Light.

See What He Sees

Portrait of a Pine Cone

Portrait of a Pine Cone

FLAGSTAFF, AZ—When I got serious about taking photos, I did what a lot of serious photography students do: I found a photographer whose work I loved and blatantly tried to copy his style.

My hero was Harry Callahan (no, not that Harry Callahan).

But here’s the thing about photography—about any art form for that matter (I include spirituality here): Once you get the theory down—once you’ve learned the techniques—you need to learn how to see.

For a photographer, you need to learn how to see color and shape and texture and negative space. For a musician, you need to learn how to see tone and rhythm and pauses and flow. For the spiritual, you need to learn how to see Love and Light and Emptiness and the Divine.

When I started trying to copy Callahan, I wasn’t trying to copy his technique—I was already well versed in photography theory at that point—no, what I was trying to do was to learn to see how Callahan sees. I wanted to see what Callahan saw before he took those photos.

There’s a saying in Zen that goes something like this, “Don’t try to be like the sages of old, try to see what they saw.”

Once you get your spiritual technique down, try to see through all the mental boundaries. Try to see the music behind it all—the tempo and rhythm and pauses. Try to see the Archetype of Everything.

Once you get the theory down, pull away all self-contraction and open your eyes to the Love and the Light and the Emptiness and the Divine.

And in no time at all, you’ll become one with your art.