The Garden of Eden

What Was Always There

What Was Always There


July 30, 2015 2:14 PM

Naked, I stood on a large boulder feeling joyously and intensely alive as the sun warmed and dried my shivering body. As all self-boundaries fell away, a deep and profound sense of connection to my surroundings engulfed me—an almost sensual merging with the forest and the boulders and the crystal clear creek and the sky and the sun. I felt one with the All as I stood on a boulder in a creek as the water rolled gently down my skin. … Read more…

The Perfect Teacher

Flawed Perfectly

Flawed Perfectly


July 25, 2015 10:58 AM

I spent the morning in a coffee shop, tagging blog posts to be included in the re-tentatively titled book The Awakening of a Mystic: Enlightenment was only the beginning…. I know, I know, I’ve started and stopped this book (and others) a number of times, but since I’m going through an O/S reboot, consolidating the past in book form seems like a safe bet.

In going through the posts, I kept coming back to how often I was “confessing my sins”—how imperfect I come across when compared to most spiritual teachers. Then I saw my comment on this recent post which is so indicative of the nature of much of the spiritual transparency problemThe idea that spiritual teachers should be perfect.Read more…

A Beer Session

The Original ATVs

The Original ATVs


July 22, 2015 10:01 AM

With this spiritual reboot, I’ve been happily screwing off as much as possible: reading fiction, playing computer games, meandering about aimlessly, exploring. After poking around Silverton for a couple days, I headed north yesterday and landed in this surprisingly private spot. A poor internet connection encouraged me to ponder a thought that has been vexing me, “What should I do next?

feel a change coming, but the direction’s been unclear. So yesterday—after finding this camp—I popped open the cargo door, sat down in the doorway, took in the mountains, absorbed the sunshine and had a couple of beers to loosen the creative juices.

In the interest of transparency, here are my notes from that session: … Read more…

Rebooting My OS

View From Camp

View From Camp


July 15, 2015 9:08 AM

I haven’t been doing much spiritual practice lately. No spiritual development. I feel like I’m going through a sort of reboot—you know, when your computer has loaded a new operating system and the restart process takes a bit longer than normal?

Kinda like that.

It’s not uncomfortable or anything. It’s just kind of a temporary and required nothing.

It feels kind of nice.

The Eater of Worlds

The Field and the Vista

The Field and the Vista


July 13, 2015 10:51 AM

I sat on a berm overlooking a lush, green ski tract with the Rocky Mountains forming a beautiful and natural panoramic backdrop. As I thought about something Jerry Freeman and I had just discussed a few moments earlier, a tall, purple flower tottered across the field of grass in front of me, then shrank and disappeared down a tiny hole—carried along, presumably, by some small and unseen rodent.

In my entire life, I had never seen anything like that. … Read more…

My Notes on the Adya Doc

The Bloom

The Bloom


July 10, 2015 2:36 PM

The last couple of days I’ve been camped in a sweet, clean and beautiful mountain clearing, but with no Signal, a bin full of dirty laundry, the desire for a coffee shop and the sounds of Mankind, I broke camp and headed into Durango.

With no internet, I spent some more time with the Adyashanti doc, taking some notes. I’ve included a modified copy of the doc wherein I highlighted sections I found interesting for one reason or another. Here are my notes if you’re curious. Kind of rough, but that’s the way I roll sometimes: … Read more…

A Lost Document

A "Lucky" Camp on the Piedra River

A “Lucky” Camp on the Piedra River


July 7, 2015 8:36 AM

I turned down a dirt road that paralleled the Piedra river, and though all the dispersed campsites were already taken, at the very last one—just before the road headed up and away from the water—a family pulled out at the exact moment that I was pulling up.

Though there was no Signal here (internet), I took the “coincidence” as a sign and made camp anyway. Was it a form of manifestation (I wanted a camp along the river) or did She have something in mind for me (a form of guidance)? I didn’t know… I never know. … Read more…

The Book: A Mystic’s Journal

My Little Friend

My Little Friend


July 5, 2015 10:28 AM

Practically every morning, this little guy hops into my van to do some exploring, then a group of five ATV’ers drive down the road at 10:30 (just now), and—like clockwork—it rains off and on from noon until nightfall. Such a busy life I have.

My latest book, A Mystic’s Journal: The Dilemma of Divine Surrender is now available on Amazon. It contains the complete text of the website but in a much easier to read format. I’d love it if some of you would post reviews to Amazon, even if you just followed along with the website while it was being written (it’s the same text). … Read more…