See What He Sees

Portrait of a Pine Cone

Portrait of a Pine Cone

FLAGSTAFF, AZ—When I got serious about taking photos, I did what a lot of serious photography students do: I found a photographer whose work I loved and blatantly tried to copy his style.

My hero was Harry Callahan (no, not that Harry Callahan).

But here’s the thing about photography—about any art form for that matter (I include spirituality here): Once you get the theory down—once you’ve learned the techniques—you need to learn how to see.

For a photographer, you need to learn how to see color and shape and texture and negative space. For a musician, you need to learn how to see tone and rhythm and pauses and flow. For the spiritual, you need to learn how to see Love and Light and Emptiness and the Divine.

When I started trying to copy Callahan, I wasn’t trying to copy his technique—I was already well versed in photography theory at that point—no, what I was trying to do was to learn to see how Callahan sees. I wanted to see what Callahan saw before he took those photos.

There’s a saying in Zen that goes something like this, “Don’t try to be like the sages of old, try to see what they saw.”

Once you get your spiritual technique down, try to see through all the mental boundaries. Try to see the music behind it all—the tempo and rhythm and pauses. Try to see the Archetype of Everything.

Once you get the theory down, pull away all self-contraction and open your eyes to the Love and the Light and the Emptiness and the Divine.

And in no time at all, you’ll become one with your art.

Posted in Best Of, Feel of, Photography, Techniques, The Light

Focusing On a Subject

Holding It Together

Holding It Together

FLAGSTAFF, AZ—In photography, before you even raise the camera to your eye, it’s important to recognize what will be the subject of the photo. What will you focus on—and just as importantly—what will you leave out of the shot.

In creating a new project, it is important to know what functionality to include and what to do without. What is the subject that you should focus on to bring your project to life?

In spirituality, there are a million people trying to sell you (get you to focus on) a million products and services (subjects), so it is crucial to weed these distractions out if you ever wish to achieve inner harmony.

The only subject that you need to focus on in order to find inner peace is this: Your identity.

Who or what exactly are you?

Note: If you have an answer to this question then I’m afraid you need to keep looking.

Posted in Emptiness, Mystical Oneness, Photography, Radiance, Soul

Looking For Abusive Behavior

My First Tarantula

My First Tarantula

FLAGSTAFF, AZ—Probably not the best title for a post, but it’s accurate.

I’ve just finished up the coding required for the initial version of the [REDACTED] project, and am now faced with adding the content. As you may know, this project is about abuse, and by abuse I mean:

Intentionally causing someone physical or psychological harm.

Part of that content is giving examples of abusive behavior, which is where I’m looking for a little help.

Here is what I have so far:

  • Striking
  • Restraining
  • Sexual Assault
  • Bullying
  • Deceiving
  • Taking advantage of someone
  • Intimidation
  • Coercion
  • Peer Pressure
  • Talking bad about someone behind their back
  • Honking your car horn in anger
  • Tailgating
  • Insulting someone

Now back to the title of this post, I’m looking for suggestions on any other abusive behaviors that I may have missed. Please keep in mind my definition above: Abuse is intentionally causing someone physical or psychological harm.

Maybe not the most pleasant thing to think about, but I really do appreciate your feedback.

Please post your thoughts/ideas in the comments below. Thanks!

Posted in Day in the Life

A Sign

The Office

The Office

FLAGSTAFF, AZ—The very first photo I saw in my news reader this morning was an image from LifeHacker and I took it as a sign I’m on the right track with the [REDACTED] project—the project I’ve been busting my hump on these last couple of weeks.

I will soon be making a very short video, probably no more than 20 seconds long, where I say less than 30 words. My hope is that when people see this video, they will have the same reaction that I had when I saw this photo this morning—after a couple of seconds of puzzlement, they’ll have a little ah-ha moment and immediately get what the [REDACTED] project is all about—and how it can benefit society.

Posted in Day in the Life, Synchronicity

24: The Burka

Standing In My Doorway Looking Down

Standing In My Doorway Looking Down

FLAGSTAFF, AZ—[Kiefer Sutherland voice over]: The following takes place between five AM and six AM on the morning of October 10th. Events happen in real time.

Beep. Beep. Beep. Beep.

Darkness. Aliveness. Glimmer of Light. Swirling. Churning. Confusion… where am I, which direction am I facing, which direction will headlights (threats?) come from, wait a minute… it’s still dark out, yet dawn’s coming, I can feel it, sense it. Arizona? Yeah, Arizona… the woods outside Flagstaff…

Silence. Swirling. Coalescing. Contraction.

I’ve been letting everyone down, I’ve been so caught up in the [REDACTED] project that my readers surely must be bored, drifting off into the ether to find someone who fits a more spiritual ideal, but worse I’ve been letting Michelle down, but isn’t that odd how busy I’ve been on other things while at the same time she’s been busy with other things? Is her life a reflection of mine or mine a reflection of hers? Is reflection the right word? Co-mingling perhaps? but that sounds sexual and I’ve never even heard her voice let alone met her, so maybe she’s got this deep basso voice (is basso the right word? a deep bull-frog voice?), wouldn’t that be weird, but I think I understand the Rumi/Sham(?) connection now, how he called Sham(?), a guy, his beloved because maybe he was talking about that famed guru/student “co-mingling” of souls—separate but (sort of) one, and… and I am letting everyone down, I just haven’t had anything spiritual to talk about lately, but then there was something Michelle said last night that struck me… what was it again? Something about faith… something like she knows that She/God’s going to take care of her. Am I the teacher or is Michelle the teacher? You dumb-ass, you’re constantly admonishing your readers not to use OR’s but AND’s, so of course it’s both… teacher/student, co-mingling, separate but one. same thing you idiot, but I am letting everyone down… and faith, that’s it, faith is what (ironically) so many religions lack, faith is meaning and religions are rules, faith isn’t about following rules but following the Light. The Light is never going to tell you to cut off someone’s head, yet practically all religions talk about killing sinners or at least Divine retribution which is just a projection of wanting to kill those who don’t think or act like you. Fucking amazing… violently aggressive people—bullies—are the bane of the World… and particularly this whole ISIS movement with their we’re right your wrong so let’s kill you because God’s on our side attitude and let’s put all women in burkas and I’m really getting fat and maybe that’s not such a bad thing ’cause it kind of shows the world that I think of my body like a burka, like this burden I carry around while I’m this Light of Awareness that peeks out the little slot that those poor women peer out of, trapped in the damn things, and I wonder if that’s why I get those double-takes so often from strangers, the he’s just another old guy sitting there just like everyone else and I’ve got a million wait what was that, there’s something odd about him, oh crap he caught me peering at him, quick look down at your phone… I wonder if that’s it, a burka-thing, a Light peering out of this damn lump of flesh covering me up, but that sounds really pompous cause it sounds like I’m special, but everyone’s wearing a burka, they just don’t know it and I wonder if that was the intended meaning of the angel in It’s A Wonderful Life who was trying to get his wings, was he just trying to get rid of his burka? That in service to others you “earn” your wings, drop the burka? Dunno, probably stretching that one, but man, why is my mind so flooded with these spiritual ideas all of the sudden? Is it Michelle re-starting her practice? I like that she has faith, that she doesn’t do what I tell her, that would be kinda creepy cult-like, but takes my meaning and bends it to fit her life. I say “A” and she makes it into “A-prime”. It’s beautiful and cool, but whatever, at least I’ve finally got some material to blog about, maybe I’ll write about Faith this morning, yeah, kinda excited about that, but I need a photo and look at that, morning light, perfect for photography, time to get up and man, do I have to pee. Does standing up make you need to pee? Is it a gravity thing? There’s no one around camp, so I can pee outside and please don’t let the door be jammed and whooo it’s nippy out and look at my sandals sitting there on the ground, I can actually see the Light shining up out of the soil around them. Damn, I wish I could capture that in my photos, capture Her Light, but seriously now, maybe you should start censoring what you write about, if [REDACTED] ever takes off, they’ll be looking into your personal life and if they ever got inside your head they’d have you committed in a heartbeat…

Beep. Beep. Beep. Beep.

Posted in Best Of, Day in the Life, Mystical Oneness, VanDwelling

A Year In Serenity

The Stealth Camper


FLAGSTAFF, AZA year ago today, on October 8th, 2013, I took Serenity out for her maiden voyage.

I’ve often asked myself, if I had to do it over again, would I do anything different? Would I get a different rig, or lay in insulation under the floor, or not tint the windows?

Would I do anything different?

The answer to all those questions is: No. She’s perfect just the way she is.

If I had to do it over again, I’d get the exact same van, and set her up in the exact same way…

Well, maybe not the ceiling.

Here is a photo gallery of Serenity’s first year.

Posted in VanDwelling

The Fleeting Nature of Practically Everything

My Office In The Woods

My Office In The Woods

FLAGSTAFF, AZ—With three clicks of the mouse, four hours of work disappeared. Sadly, this was not my intention.

Phase I of this idea I’m working on will generate income from the sales of some Zazzle items (along with donations), so I spent the morning designing the products I intend to sell (shirts, hoodies, coffee mugs, and possibly charms/jewelry).

After finishing three products, I realized I had made a tiny mistake, so I deleted the products, which—unbeknownst to me—also deleted the designs that I was using for the products.

Poof! Four hours of work instantly vaporized into the ether.

I sat and looked at the screen, at all the white space where my designs used to be, closed the laptop, took a deep breath and gazed outside.

The Eternal quality tells us (contrary to the way it sounds) that practically everything is temporary. Every plant and tree and bird I was looking at outside would soon be gone. My rig would be gone, my possessions, my body.

The Eternal quality says, “You own nothing. There’s no use trying to hold onto anything. Everything, except you-as-Awareness, vanishes.”

I opened back up the laptop, and started clicking and dragging once again.

Posted in Soul

The Recurring Tasks In My Life

The Bench at the North Rim

The Bench at the North Rim

FLAGSTAFF, AZOn the last day of every month, I download all updates to my software programs, operating systems, and mobile apps. I do this on the last day of the month because Millenicom re-starts their usage meter on the first. If the updates bump me over the usage limitation, it won’t affect me more than 24 hours.

On the first of every month, I update the Favorite PhotosTestimonials, and Donation Totals on this blog, as well as clear the cache and optimize the database to keep it running as efficiently as possible.

I also transfer any income from book sales or donations from my PayPal account to my regular bank account.

Next, I ruthlessly prune photos I took two months ago but didn’t use or particularly like and dump the remaining to an external hard drive. I then delete these backed up photos from my computer to free up disk space. I keep two months of photos on my computer so I always have a cache of images to call upon if I don’t have a daily one for the blog posts.

Finally, I pull out the storage containers from under my bunk and unhook my third jerry can of water, swapping it out for one of the two jerry cans that I rotate between regularly during the month. This keeps all the water jugs in rotation.

Every Sunday I dump anything in my “idea collection boxes” (my phone’s voice recorder and OmniFocus’ Inbox) to either OneNote (if it’s an idea) or OmniFocus (if it’s a task), then review all my OmniFocus tasks and flag anything I want to work on this week.

I then click over to my “Weekly” email folder and answer any emails that I received during the week that I felt needed a deeper response than I was ready to give when I received it.

I then backup my hard drive using Apple’s built-in Time Machine.

Every evening, in bed, I do my personal Emptiness practice which entails releasing any mental contractions (me-me-me) and expanding into the Vastness until I fall asleep. This functions as my daily meditation and helps keep me grounded.

During the day, I mostly live in Radiance, with the Eternal quality always present to remind me not to take any of this too seriously.

And so it goes.

Posted in Day in the Life, VanDwelling

Progress and Motivation and Spiritual Growth

The Photographer and the North Rim

The Photographer and the North Rim

FLAGSTAFF, AZ—Progress is slow on the new website I’m designing. I’ve spent the last two days buried deep in technical pages while researching various open-source packages.

And while not a line of code has been written, I’ve still learned a lot. I’ve grown. And because I’m learning all this new stuff, it’s keeping me motivated.

Though no code has been written, I’ve progressed.

For about 20 years I did the, “Who am I?” inquiry that Ramana Maharshi advocated. This question is designed to reveal the core of the Self (if you can see it, it’s not you). 20 years of my life, yet I never felt rewarded. I never progressed much with the technique.

I suspect most students of traditional non-dual teachings feel the same. The drop-the-ego-all-at-once technique is so all or nothing. They don’t see any progress. Just maybe a big bang sometime in the unforeseeable future.

It’s discouraging.

Mystical Oneness—with its gradual approach—is different in that respect. You see and feel progress almost immediately. The Eternal practice helps you overcome fear. The Radiance practice helps you become more loving. The Emptiness practice helps you see through your thoughts.

Day-by-day you feel yourself progressing.

And progress helps keep us motivated.

Posted in Mystical Oneness

Pushing South

Lunch on Mt. Nebo

Lunch on Mt. Nebo

SOMEWHERE N OF KANAB, UT—Though there is much I’d like to see in all these national parks here in southern Utah, I’m compelled to go to ground and get some work done on this new project that’s been gnawing at me. I think I have most of the problems worked out, so I’m excited to get started.

The plan is to visit the north rim of the Grand Canyon today and/or tomorrow, then head down to Flagstaff, find a place to camp for awhile, and get this project whipped together.

If I don’t get called back to Florida this winter, then maybe I’ll hit the Utah parks this spring. We’ll see.

Posted in VanDwelling

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