Giving and Getting

A Pleasant Little Stream

A Pleasant Little Stream


October 18, 2016 3:34 PM

I placed two DVDs I had bought last night on an outdoor table where someone would find them. I had burned them to my computer and didn’t need them anymore. Then I walked next door to get some coffee.

As soon as I stepped up to the counter, the barista gave me a free breakfast sandwich because she’d made an extra one by mistake.

Sometimes it works that way: Do a good deed. Get a good deed. Usually not that fast though. It felt conscious. It felt grateful. Like I’d given Her a gift and She’d given me one right back. … Read more…

Waiting and Writing

A Pacific Northwest Day in a Nevada Coffeeshop

A Pacific Northwest Day in a Nevada Coffeeshop


October 16, 2016 5:45 PM

The pain from the kidney stone comes and goes—maybe as it hops in and out of the ureter, I don’t know—but it is mostly pain-free. Still, I’ve been reining in my roaming spirit to stay within an hour of the hospital—just in case it lodges itself back in there.

The side-effects from the meds they have me on are the worst of it, but I think my body’s just about adapted to them because those are diminishing.

I’m scheduled to see the urologist tomorrow morning. We’ll see what the options are. I hope they can just sonic blast it—that didn’t work last time I went through this, but this stone is smaller (I think). Honestly, I haven’t been thinking about it much. What’s to do? This body is just a body. My situation is just a situation. It is what it is.

Just this. Just this. Just this.

So I’ve been stealth camping around town at night and working on the book during the day. A side-benefit to all this “down time” is that I’ve finished the first-draft of the I AM Aspect.

So rather than the kidney stone putting me behind on the book like I thought it would, it’s actually put me a little ahead.

Funny how things work out.

The I AM Trials

Day Use Only (Now)

Day Use Only (Now)


October 11, 2016 4:42 PM

I’m always amazed when I see the hand of TaoGod working behind the scenes.

A major quality of the I AM Aspect is to view life like a dream. To see how inconsequential events ultimately are. To recognize the fleetingness of them. To deeply understand that nothing, nothing, can ultimately affect you. … Read more…

The Moment (I AM Aspect)

Six Hours Later

Six Hours Later


October 9, 2016 8:57 AM

In Spiritually Incorrect Enlightenment, Jed McKenna wrote

I look upon Civil War hospitals and Nazi death camps and children’s burn wards with the same eye with which I look upon bursting gardens and starswept nights and laughing babies.

I wonder how he’d “look upon” pliers to his testicles type pain? … Read more…

The Moment (The Self)

The Infinite Layers of Life

The Infinite Layers of Life


October 5, 2016 5:11 PM

For the Divine to see Herself, She requires separation. She requires you. Like a finger pushed below the surface of an aquarium, you are a finger of the Divine pushed into this manifest world. For you to survive so that She can see Herself, you need desires. Without desires, you would die. The Self Aspect—your essential me-vehicle—is largely about how you handle these desires. From the book, from earlier today… … Read more…

The Bird

Of Snow and Ice and Light

Of Snow and Ice and Light


October 3, 2016 4:06 PM

I awoke to white. To a layer of snow and ice. It explains why I have the camp all to myself—everyone else is smarter than me. Or they are lousy photographers. Because when the weather is bad, the shooting is always so very good.

I climbed out of bed and dressed and stepped outside. It was cold, but not that cold, not enough to head back inside. The air was so still. What is it about mornings like this? The silence? The solitude? The beauty? I love them, I love the feel of them. She—the Divine, my Lover—lies so close, just below the surface, just below visual perception. It is mornings like this where the artist senses Her—sees Her. On mornings like this, the artist feels compelled to paint Her or write about Her or put Her to music. Or he lifts his camera in a futile attempt to capture Her beauty. … Read more…

East Then West Then South

Can You See Her?

Can You See Her?


September 30, 2016 3:29 PM

With nowhere to be, I passed straight through John Day and figured I’d continue onto Idaho. 20 miles later, while deep in a national forest looking for a place to camp, I got a flat.

My Fix-a-Flat didn’t fix the flat so I resorted to changing it the old fashioned way. Not a big deal. I’ve changed a million flats, but this was my first experience with Serenity and the whole winched spare tire under the truck thing—that was the hardest part, getting the spare de-winched. I think I’ll pick up one of those tire-hole-plugger kits next time I remember.

I slept on the mountain. It was cool and comfortable and pleasant. … Read more…

Drifting, Writing, and Thermoelectric Coolers

The View From Home

The View From Home


September 29, 2016 1:47 PM


I don’t know where I’m heading. I woke up this morning somewhere in the Ochoco National Forest, worked for a few hours on the book and am now drifting eastward. When (if) I hit John Day, OR will I head southwest toward the Sierras? South toward the deserts of Nevada? Southeast toward Utah? Or continue eastward to Idaho? I don’t know. Each has its appeal. Freedom is another word for too many choices. … Read more…

The Active Siddhi Exception

Looking Toward The Unknown

Looking Toward The Unknown


September 26, 2016 1:55 PM

Ha! The title sounds like a spy thriller. Unfortunately, I forgot a key group of siddhis in my last post: Energy work and transference. Kundalini, Reiki, Chakras, etc.

I am 95% certain that there is something to these. The reason my faith in them is so high—given my attraction toward the rational—is that I’ve had some personal experiences that simply aren’t easily written off. … Read more…